Today is day number 2 of a 5 day fast that i am partaking upon. Fasting is something that i have seen people do in the Church as long as i remember. And as long as i remember i’ve wondered why anyone would want to starve themselves for a alloted amount of time… No matter their reasons, i’ve come up with my own reasons for a 5 day fast, and i’m well into it today. Am i hungry? Yes, to be filled more and more with the Spirit and less with food. I’m a food junkie too, but now i’m a spiritual junkie. Replacing my hunger with the spirit and food with love. It suffices me, wholly.
I sat down tonight to read and pray. I turned on some good Jesus worshiping music and began doing what i do. I asked for clarity in what i’m seeking. For life, for my day, for my months for my relationships; i’ve asked for clarity for all that i do. In that, i found myself stumbling across Ecclesiastes. So i read. I read a mans tales of a search that led him to fame, riches, women, status; everything he wanted he found. But in the end he was empty with all the wisdom he had acquired. He was left with what he had earned with his own hands only to die leaving it all behind, like spitting in the wind, nothing but smoke.
It reminds me that no matter what i can set out to accomplish with my own two hands, my own narrow mind, that there is nothing more satisfying than seeking God with my life. A fullness that no other materialistic dream, adventure, friendship or piece of knowledge can give; He gives.
For that reason, this week i have dedicated to fasting. In preparation for something amazing God will do in my life. How do i know there’s going to be something amazing? Because i know my God, and he amazes me. Nothing short he will do, in fact nothing short i will believe he has done already. And for that he deserves my praise this week. Through the struggle he has seen me come and stood by my side, waiting. Something few friends can say they’ve done.
Well… i’m bad with endings and goodbye’s so i guess that pretty much sums up my thoughts. Seek the Lord , my encouragement is with you and so is His.
Btw, i know the photo is random. I found it when i googled “God is good” and thought it was appropriately funny, except the possibility that it’s a girl. Hmm..
Things i am thankful for:
1. God’s grace
2. A great family
4. My health
5. Life stories
6. Good people
10. Sunny days
11. Ice cream
13. Gummy bear multivitamins
14. musical instruments
I’m done. I’m thankful.
Throughout this semester i have been seeking refinement for myself and my relationship with God. Fall 2010 was one busy time in my life. Working two jobs and taking 17 hours in school is no easy task to tackle. When i found the free time that i so often did not have, i was exhausted. Towards the end of the semester i realized that i was putting God’s time into my “free time” slot. When i realized that, i knew something had to change. I’ve been seeking consistency with my relationship with Him intentionally. Thus far, its working; i’ve been consistent with my time spent with Him. I’m reading a Psalm a day, just one. Then thinking, praying and spending time with God and writing what that specific Psalm relates to in my life. It’s said that a true habit takes 6 weeks to form or break (which i learned in my psychopathology class) or you have to repeat something 1,100 times to create a new pathway that your brain recognizes. SO, reading a Psalm a day is a stretch towards consistency. It’s going great if you were wondering. This video i’ve posted describes what i think God is trying to communicating to us all the time. It’s not a Christian artist but the lyrics are powerful and although my understanding of the lyrics are most likely out of the original context, i don’t care. I love the song, i love Greg. Listen, ponder and enjoy!
“This force, which is the best thing in you, your highest self, will never respond to any ordinary half-hearted call, or any milk-and-water endeavor, It can only be reached by your supremest call, your supremest effort. It will respond only to the call that is backed up by the whole of you, not part of you; you must be all there in what you are trying to do. You must bring every particle of your energy, unanswerable resolution, your best efforts, your persistent industry to your task or the best will not come out of you. You must back up your ambition by your whole nature, by unbounded enthusiasm and a determination to win which knows no failure… Only a masterly call, a masterly will, a supreme effort, intense and persistent application, can unlock the door to your inner treasure and release your highest powers.” Orison Swett Marden
I get inspired by the weirdest things sometimes. It could come from a person, maybe a conversation or something my mind is completely creating in fantasy land. Whatever it is, it’s never the same two days in a row, which makes inspiration so valuable to me. I find it through music often, i am always listening to something new. Whatever it is that inspires me, i’ve found that doing something with it is a must. My dad said to me as a kid that i should never let those moments of inspiration go. He told me i’d never know when they’ll come again or what will come of them unless i acted on them. I feel like inspiration is a inheritance of thoughts from something deeper than ourselves. A new experience, a opened perception to something. Whatever does it or however it happens, take it, use and abuse it, create and do your thing with it. My thinking leads me to believe that true inspiration is a rarity, a rarity that should be cherished but also exhausted.
Here’s a few music pieces that inspire me today (click on the numbered entry’s below):